Starting our Path

I would have to say that last week was a pretty rough week for me. I blogged earlier about my PCOS and my decision to go see a specialist. When that occurred, I was reminded of how patience is a necessary evil. I am also reminded of the story of Abraham. (This is just a reference of that situation in Hebrews)

"For when God made a promise to Abraham, since he had no one greater by whom to swear, he swore by himself, saying, 'Surely I will bless you and multiply you.' And thus Abraham, having patiently waited, obtained the promise." Hebrews 6:13-15

As I read that, I also found this commentary to accompany those verses.

• God made a promise to Abraham and then He confirmed the promise with an oath. "And so, after Abraham patiently endured, he obtained the promise." How long did he patiently endure? Over thirty-five years. "Oh God, I don't have that much time left." We are so impatient, aren't we? We want God to do it right now. We want immediate results. And usually we have a time limit set, at the most a week, for God to work. "But after he waited patiently he obtained the promise." God did give to Sarah a son, as He promised He would, even when the likelihood of having a son became humanly totally impossible.

God gave Abraham and Sarah a child. It might not have been when they had hoped, but in the end, with patience, they were blessed with a son.

This is my reminder.

So, in short, the specialist (or the fertility doctor), gave me lots of useful information on my condition and helped me realize where I was and how treatable my case may be. He was very thorough and informative. I had another sonogram which still showed my wonderful "ring of pearls" (typical of PCOS) and also saw that I needed to have a period. NOW. Basically, his options are very doable, if we had a lot of money. He is very reasonable with his prices, but it's still very expensive and very aggressive. After an afternoon/evening of crying and different emotions filling my mind, I decided to call my OB/GYN again on Friday to talk to her about what her next step would be. She gave me some of the same options, but with smaller first steps. I was surprised at the amount of treatment she could offer me in her office. I basically can do everything Dr. G suggested doing, at less than half the price. And, she would allow me to take it slow and take small steps instead of being so aggressive. This made me feel a ton better. I'm not taking Dr. G completely out of the situation, I just think I'm going to be a whole lot more comfortable with Dr. M (#1: she's a girl, #2: it's cheaper, #3: she understands me and my limits, planning, impatience, etc.) I have not let Dr. G know this yet, and I'm trying to figure out the best way to break it to him. (He gave me another call today to see if I had any further thoughts about where we wanted to go.)

Brad did have to have a semen analysis done, which is good fun, and those results came in today. They aren't exactly what we were hoping for, but we've scheduled an appointment for him to see a urologist for further examination. We'll see. It's nothing serious, just a little bump in the road.

In the end, we are going to start the first step of fertility treatment this month. I will begin taking medication to induce ovulation, and we will go from there hoping for a positive ovulation test. Once Brad has a little more detailed information, that will also decide more of how this will all go down! :)

What I came away with this week: I will get pregnant. It may cost some extra bucks. I have to be patient. (Even if it is for 35 years!)